The Others

It’s easy for me, relatively speaking. I’m living my illness. I’m at the centre of my world of disability, illness, doctors, tests and hospitals. I get on and do the best I can each and every day; I deal with the pain, nausea, dislocating joints, wonky autonomic nervous system, exhaustion and fragility. I live it as it’s a part of my everyday life. Although I’m more than my ill-health, it forms a big role right at the core of my being. A trip to the hospital, more bad news or time in A and E, all form a part of

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The D Word

Although this is written in the present tense, I wrote this in the spring of 2015. It didn’t feel right to post it until the dark clouds had started to lift… Well, 26/27 on the depression scale. Not quite full marks, but not far off. As I sat with my doctor discussing this score, I found myself strangely irritated that I didn’t manage a perfect score; what does that say about me? So, 26/27, in other words, severe depression, also known as reaching saturation point and, quite possibly the worst enduring all time low I’ve ever had. This score has

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2016 Yearly Forecast

Message for 2016 It’s hard to look ahead to the coming year without looking back over the previous twelve months as this gives us a reference point and a sense of context. 2015 has unquestionably been a challenging and difficult year for a great many souls as we have felt wave after wave crashing in on the shoreline of our souls. There have been moments of isolation, moments of revelation, moments of despondency and moments of joy. There have been a great many more other moments as well, each one giving us a unique experience and perspective. Although I rarely

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