Message for December 2019 As life continues to bounce and ricochet each of us around like a squash ball on double espressos, there is an understandable sense of soul-level weariness rising up from deep within. I’m not sure if it’s just me, but there seems to be a palpable and tangible rise in pain, not only within me, but more noticeably within the hearts and souls of just about everyone I come into contact with. It’s as though the filters that once closed the curtains to many of our troubles have fallen away and left us naked, exposed and vulnerable.
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Why I Am The Way I Am
Someone recently asked me if I knew the reason why I have my health conditions. I’d just had some reflexology which was wonderful, and I really enjoyed it, so I was feeling extremely relaxed and centred. Considering I don’t usually let anyone go within a metre of my left foot, let alone touch it, it was a miracle I’d agreed to it, but I trusted the therapist and I was pleased I was able to completely relax and switch off for the hour or so. I sat quietly for a while pondering the question before I replied. It doesn’t usually
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Message for November 2019 In a world of uncertainty and nebulousness, one thing is abundantly clear: we are all living in tumultuous and turbulent times. Energetically, physically, emotionally, spiritually, politically and morally, the ground is shifting from beneath our feet and it’s bewildering, confusing and exhausting, all at the same time. Just as we feel as though things are settling, something else rocks the boat and sends us into another spin, then another. We barely have time to catch our breath or steady ourselves before the next challenge begins. We have each been challenged this year on so many levels,
More ...Learning to Dive – To Bleed Willingly
I’m not sure if it’s just me, but I’ve always felt an intense ‘pressure’ or expectation to be happy. During those times when I’ve been swamped with pain and unhappiness, I’ve struggled as it’s somehow felt wrong and socially unacceptable, so I’ve tried to fix myself and smile over the cracks. It took me many years before I started to look beyond these beliefs to consider the idea that unhappiness is actually okay. It seems there is a deep sense of fear or discomfort with the idea of being unhappy or sad so we resist it at all costs. However,
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For many years I put a brave face on my pain and bodily dysfunction; I denied my disability, ignored my fatigue and I brushed over my emotional and spiritual issues. It was easier to deny them in a quest to try to function as normally as possible in order to get on with the business of my life. Yet, this became harder and harder, and I used every ounce of my being to present a façade of being ‘normal’, but the reality was that I was slowly slipping out of sight. My disconnect with myself, and my reality, had reached
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There has been a relentlessness to the challenges I’ve faced over the last year: each one coming before I’ve recovered from the previous one, creating a backlog of intense emotion and a feeling of overwhelm so profound it’s taken my breath away at times. I imagine it’s a bit like being in the ocean in a storm, trying to catch my breath in-between the rolling waves, but not having the time as the waves and swell are simply too strong and concentrated. Every ounce of my determination has, on some days, been focused solely on ensuring that an out-breath follows
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Message for October 2019 It’s quite hard at the moment to step back and look at the world without feeling a sense of despair at the chaos all around. So much doesn’t make sense and the clashing of actions, choices and opinions of others seem to have reached fever pitch. As individuals, we all have our own opinions, and those of a like-mind may come together, but it feels like the brick walls of opposition and anger have great power at the current time making it so challenging for those of us who are sensitive, intuitive and of a gentle
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Message for September 2019 As the feeling of being ‘somewhere in the middle’ continues, throughout September there is a growing sense of connection to the twists and turns life. It’s as though several layers of sensitivity have suddenly been switched on, and we are each being challenged to find ways of dealing with this overload of information, emotion, experiences and awareness. Life is rarely straightforward, or black and white, but this feels a step beyond complicated, it’s akin to someone turning up the volume on all of the senses, and suddenly everything is more acute, from sounds, smells, sights and
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Message for August 2019 In the intense heat of the summer months, when the air feels heavy and it’s hard to breathe, there’s a sense of stagnation; the flowers wilt, we wilt and even the buildings seem to sag in the heat. When those storms come, the skies darken, the wind gathers force and when the heavens finally open, the rain seems to rejuvenate and restore the balance once again. This is also a cycle we find ourselves in at the moment as there is a heavy and cumbersome feel to life, as though we are hovering in those moments
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Message for July 2019 July looks set to be a month of continued release as we let go of more of the ‘stuff’ and clutter in our lives. We all have it; whether it’s physical clutter around the house, a cluttered laptop or a stuffed-up mind. It’s only natural to accumulate stuff and clutter on our journey through life, after all, we’re naturally inquisitive and curious beings. However, when we continually collect without letting go, we can become bunged up and stodgy as our sense of self fades under the weight of everything we carry around. Over time, we start
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