Learning to Dive – To Bleed Willingly

I’m not sure if it’s just me, but I’ve always felt an intense ‘pressure’ or expectation to be happy. During those times when I’ve been swamped with pain and unhappiness, I’ve struggled as it’s somehow felt wrong and socially unacceptable, so I’ve tried to fix myself and smile over the cracks. It took me many years before I started to look beyond these beliefs to consider the idea that unhappiness is actually okay. It seems there is a deep sense of fear or discomfort with the idea of being unhappy or sad so we resist it at all costs. However,

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The Pain of Isolation

For many years I put a brave face on my pain and bodily dysfunction; I denied my disability, ignored my fatigue and I brushed over my emotional and spiritual issues. It was easier to deny them in a quest to try to function as normally as possible in order to get on with the business of my life. Yet, this became harder and harder, and I used every ounce of my being to present a façade of being ‘normal’, but the reality was that I was slowly slipping out of sight. My disconnect with myself, and my reality, had reached

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I Want In

There has been a relentlessness to the challenges I’ve faced over the last year: each one coming before I’ve recovered from the previous one, creating a backlog of intense emotion and a feeling of overwhelm so profound it’s taken my breath away at times. I imagine it’s a bit like being in the ocean in a storm, trying to catch my breath in-between the rolling waves, but not having the time as the waves and swell are simply too strong and concentrated. Every ounce of my determination has, on some days, been focused solely on ensuring that an out-breath follows

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October 2019 Forecast

Message for October 2019 It’s quite hard at the moment to step back and look at the world without feeling a sense of despair at the chaos all around. So much doesn’t make sense and the clashing of actions, choices and opinions of others seem to have reached fever pitch. As individuals, we all have our own opinions, and those of a like-mind may come together, but it feels like the brick walls of opposition and anger have great power at the current time making it so challenging for those of us who are sensitive, intuitive and of a gentle

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