Life is shaped and defined by the storms we endure, as well as by the quieter moments of peace and reflection that we unearth amongst the chaos. The seasons always change, the balmy days of summer turn to the autumn dank; the clouds gather and the cold then comes, but then the shoots emerge and
Read More ...Inspirational
Cocooning
Over the last couple of weeks, I’ve often stopped briefly and contemplated the gravity of the global pandemic we’re all currently facing, I find myself feeling dazed and confused on a daily basis at the bewildering speed of how things have moved and at how much everyday life has changed. There is a great amount
Read More ...True Alchemy
Last year was undoubtedly the most challenging year of my life, so much so, it has taken me until now to process it and to find the courage to form the words to write about it. I had to face the depths of myself and, as if that wasn’t enough, I kept on going into
Read More ...Learning to Dive – To Bleed Willingly
I’m not sure if it’s just me, but I’ve always felt an intense ‘pressure’ or expectation to be happy. During those times when I’ve been swamped with pain and unhappiness, I’ve struggled as it’s somehow felt wrong and socially unacceptable, so I’ve tried to fix myself and smile over the cracks. It took me many
Read More ...The Pain of Isolation
For many years I put a brave face on my pain and bodily dysfunction; I denied my disability, ignored my fatigue and I brushed over my emotional and spiritual issues. It was easier to deny them in a quest to try to function as normally as possible in order to get on with the business
Read More ...I Want In
There has been a relentlessness to the challenges I’ve faced over the last year: each one coming before I’ve recovered from the previous one, creating a backlog of intense emotion and a feeling of overwhelm so profound it’s taken my breath away at times. I imagine it’s a bit like being in the ocean in
Read More ...Recombobulating
I’ve spent a great deal of my life feeling deeply discombobulated as I’ve fractured, re-formed and fractured time and time again. In fact, it’s happened more times than I care to recall! This process is a part of life and it’s how we evolve but no one warned me just how gut wrenching and soul
Read More ...Living in the Ruins
I’ve thought a lot lately about pain, depression and my health challenges. I’ve opened myself up and laid myself bare. In the process, I’ve learned a great deal about myself, my life and my beliefs as I’ve journeyed through the up’s and down’s. I’ve tried to share my insights and experiences to help and inspire
Read More ...Dancing on my Own
Sometimes I have brief moments of carefree abandon when I feel uninhibited by the shackles of being human and I touch on something so exquisite and so precious it takes my breath away. These fleeting moments instil a sense of hope and passion in me, an awareness of the magic that’s inherent within the universe.
Read More ...A Flicker in the Darkness
I just can’t do it anymore; the shutters have fallen and there’s nothing left. My will to push on is ebbing and waning. I’ve felt out of control; a silent witness. I struggle to engage in the intimacies of conversation or everyday life, and I’ve anaesthetised myself and built giant prison walls around my heart
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