Message for June 2017
Sitting under the shade of the giant Horse Chestnut Tree, it was easy to get lost in the majesty of the moment and listen to the wind whispering with the leaves, watching the dappled sunlight dancing all around me and feeling the silent power of the earth and quiet dignity of the tree flowing through me. I felt interconnected and alive. Every cell within me tingled and every sound, sight and sense was enlivened and refreshed as though I was experiencing this for the first time. Of course, in many ways, I was experiencing this for the first time as every moment’s unique.
Although fleeting, these are precious opportunities to feel wholeheartedly present and alive, yet it’s so hard to keep hold of this as we step back into the everyday humdrum of life. Life can be unquestionably difficult, challenging, overwhelming and confusing at times, and when we find ourselves in such situations, it can be hard to notice the majesty of the moment as we’re simply too busy trying to do the best we can. Even though we may not notice the magic, it doesn’t mean it stops happening, does it?
Does a tree falling in a forest make a sound or do we create that sound because we are perceiving the moment? Similarly, does the tree only emanate quiet dignity when we feel it or is it always that way? Is it our perception that creates our experiences or do they happen anyway but we just fail to notice? Yet, diving deeply into philosophy doesn’t really help us make sense of the whizz-bang rush of ‘stuff’ we often find ourselves dealing with. Whilst it’s only human to try to make sense of why things are the way they are, there is a time and a place to take a deep breath and step more consciously into the here and now. It’s only when we do this that we become aware of moments of quiet magical majesty and suddenly the answers to the questions we seek no longer seem relevant as we’ve stopped asking the questions.
Of course, there is no clear-cut, easy route through life and we have to take it day by day, doing the best we can. We may want answers and clarity, but whenever we feel we have these, life has a habit of throwing up a curve-ball to remind us that we don’t. So, is battling on, trying to achieve this really the answer, or should we accept the moment in order to allow ourselves to breathe more deeply into the magic and majesty around and within us? Acceptance isn’t giving up, nor is it giving in, it’s a willingness to be fully awake, eyes wide open, and to love life anyway. Life has up’s and it has plenty of down’s, but they’re constants, we cannot eradicate them, so maybe the key to happiness comes not from trying to control the currents or seek out all the answers, but to accept there’s bliss to be found in the uncertainty and from the not knowing. After all, if we knew everything, we’d have nowhere to evolve to and there really wouldn’t be any fun in being know-it-all’s…
As an air of restlessness continues to create whispers deep within your heart and soul, there is a growing sense of awareness of a changing tide on the near horizon. Whilst you have not actively or consciously been seeking a specific change in the currents of your life, intuitively you have been expecting it as those whispers have been growing louder and more audible over recent weeks and months. June looks set to be a month of creative reflection and deep listening as you allow those whispers to take shape and form, breathing life into them as they take on your fiery effervescence and sparkling courage. Of course, listening to your deeper self is often the easiest part, as acting on those whispers and thoughts can be much harder as they involve looking at both yourself and your life in a completely different way.
You have never been one for turning away from a challenge, and this has seen you achieve a great deal in your life. However, your determination sometimes strays into the realms of stubbornness and you can find yourself pushing on even when intuitively you know it would be better to walk around or away. It’s never easy to know what to do in any given situation: push, resist, walk away or find another path as, on the surface, there are rarely any clear-cut answers. Yet, when you look beyond expectations, drive and beliefs, the answer is usually quite obvious: you just have to open up your eyes and be willing to see the truth. This is a time to trust your phenomenal intuition in order to step into the next chapter of your life with a sense of intuitive know-how to navigate the ebbs and flows with confidence, courage and intuitive wisdom…
June looks set to be a month of continued stillness reaching out far and wide into every corner and crevice of your being. On the surface, it may be hard to sense the stillness as your life feels a little chaotic and tumultuous, but, if you pause, even briefly, you will sense the stillness rising up from deep within you. Stillness isn’t necessarily silence, nor is it quietness or tranquillity, the essence of stillness is more a state of being where you feel centred and in equilibrium even in the midst of the busy-ness of your everyday life. You may wonder how on earth such a state can be achieved, particularly given your current circumstances, but there is little to do here other than opening up your consciousness to the concept and allowing it to breathe and flourish. At your core, you are a courageous, steadfast and unfaltering soul, even in the face of adversity, you stand strong and resolute; little rocks you off centre when you connect to your inner power and allow the essence of stillness to flow freely.
Of course, this is somewhat easier said than done, as there are times when life feels like an uphill struggle and you feel overwhelmed and overawed, but, once again, when you take a deep breath, the stillness is always with you, offering a steady hand of support and inspiring you to believe in yourself and your gifts. Life, by its very nature, is inherently unknowable, and whilst this frequently frustrates you, you know it’s a certainty. When you re-centre, you let go of this frustration and allow the ebb and flow of the currents to move freely through your life allowing you to re-connect to your strength and inner power, inspiring you to glow from the inside, out…
Change; perhaps the only true constant in life. Like the shifting sands along the beach, nothing ever stays the same, no matter how much you want it to. Of course, intuitively you know this, but you still find it hard to accept the apparent powerlessness of your existence. There is a sense that you sometimes allow this powerlessness to pervade into many aspects of your life as you try to seek out answers to the many questions you have in life; you are not content to sit and watch the world go by, you want to dive in and ascertain exactly why things are the way they are. You allow the concept of powerlessness to disempower you rather than shifting your perspective towards the inevitable ebb and flow of life, and thriving as a result. Yet, why? Do you want to understand so you can let go more or do you want to understand so you can try to get the better of change and thwart the process?
This is no judgement on you, after all, change isn’t always a bed of roses and you’ve seen your fair share of endings. Yet, intuitively you know you can no more stop the process of change than you can stop the day from turning into the night, so why try? Well, your grit and determination do not stem from foolhardiness but from a desire to create the best possible life and to cultivate a truer, and more genuine, sense of happiness. You like to understand why things are the way they are in order to make life better and this desire looks set to inspire you to transform your life as you begin to see the true gift that change brings you and, by letting go, opening up to the bigger picture of your life…
As you continue to expand your perspective and allow your focus to step beyond the four walls of your everyday life, there is a growing sense of creative expansion reaching deeply into your heart and soul. Looking beyond the ordinary is inspiring you to tap into the sparkling and effervescent creative force within as you begin to contemplate what you truly want in life. You have been ticking along, going with the flow for quite some time now and your soul is restless, seeking more meaning and challenge. Challenge may seem like an off choice of word, after all, no one wants a challenge do they? Well, yes. A challenge is a way to push yourself beyond your comfort zone and to inspire you to think outside of the box in order to tap into your gifts and skills. Unless you try to push yourself how can you know just how much you are capable of?
Whilst there is much to be said for maintaining routine and ‘keeping on keeping on’, you feel stuck in your trustworthy pair of familiar, somewhat tatty, old comfortable slippers. They still keep your feet warm but they’re threadbare and worn, and your determination to keep wearing them now seems to take more effort than the challenge of either replacing them or going barefoot. Of course, your sensible side feels barefoot is neither practical nor safe, but intuitively you want nothing more than a carefree barefooted dance in the long grass of the hills and valleys of life all around you; you want to experience the freedom of less restraint and the joy of something new. These hills and valleys may not be part of your everyday life but they could be; the question is, do you want them to be? So, comfortable slippers or a carefree dance, the decision is yours…
What’s more important: loving life or living it? Living life is something we all do by a process of default although many err on the side of caution and try to resist living life until something better comes along. Loving life is perhaps more complicated as it involves a conscious choice or decision to embrace life with an open heart and an open mind, choosing to dive right in and seize the day. There is a very different dynamic to the two and although your heart and soul longs to love life there is a sense that you feel as though you are too busy ‘turning the wheel’ and stuck in a cycle of living life. It can be hard to know how to break this cycle, after all, you are working hard and keeping the wheels on the bus of your life turning around. However, there is a distinct lack of colour and vibrancy with such a strategy as it leaves little room for your passion and creativity to flow freely.
Almost every level of your being longs to let go in order to live a more enriching life yet, it’s hard for you to throw caution to the wind as you risk stepping into unknown territory but it’s important to remember that this is your life and you have a choice to either live it in ways that maintain stability (but perhaps lose spontaneity), or to embrace the moment and see where it takes you. Of course, life is rarely as straightforward as this as there are always many different factors, people and situations to take into account, yet your soul is calling out for you to reach towards your dreams so, do you ignore this or do you use your ingenuity and initiative to embrace a brand-new way of living and being?
June looks set to be a month for grabbing hold of your dreams, shaking them about a bit, blowing away the cobwebs and having a good re-think as to what you truly want from life. So, not much time to be resting on your laurels! Although maybe resting on your laurels is exactly what you need to be doing in order to re-evaluate and re-define the shape and story of your life. Sometimes there is more action in being rather than doing. Sometimes doing less actually enables you, in the long run, to do more. This may sound slightly strange and counter-intuitive, but instinctively you know how much more you achieve when you’re thinking clearly and you have a stronger sense of equilibrium in your life, and this doesn’t necessarily come from doing more, it often simply evolves as a result of clearing your head and re-focusing.
Chaos can be immensely disturbing to you as it can pick you up and carry you off into the swirling winds of the tornado of life as you lose sight of your goals and sense of self. Of course, you cannot stop the swirling winds but, when you take a deep breath and re-connect to your inner stillness, you are no longer buffeted about, but more able to stand firm. You also have the choice to willingly let go and ride the waves, and this feels so much more empowering than being tossed about in the swirling winds! In a way, much of this is about re-establishing a stronger sense of self and a clearer perspective as the less overwhelmed you feel, the more able you are to focus on what you truly, unequivocally want from life. Being clear on such matters isn’t always easy but this is a perfect time for you to try…
The concept of stillness and tranquillity looks set to continue to take centre stage throughout June as you are nearing a crossroads of significant shift in your life. Although your mind twists and turns like a maelstrom on caffeine pills, you often feel like you ought to have more stillness within as this is what you believe everyone aspires to achieve, after all, isn’t that the pathway to happiness and joy? In some ways you are right, as inner stillness is important, yet if such a state pulls you away from your natural state of being, then is it really the right thing for you? Whenever an ‘ought’ pops into the equation it’s important to re-evaluate your motivations as ‘oughts’ are often a sign that you are trying to be or do something you’re not. Maybe it’s possible to find stillness within that maelstrom and it’s only your ongoing resistance to being the maelstrom that creates the discord? Maybe if you accept your true essence, love it and embrace it, then you can learn how to thrive in the twists and turns?
Being you is fabulous; you are a creative, passionate, philosophical and convivial soul, and you often forget all of this as you aspire to push yourself in order to do more, be more and achieve more. Why not be you and be happy being you? Whilst the concept of stillness and tranquillity take centre stage, they do so in order for you to realise what you are not. This isn’t a waste of time as, in many ways, finding out what doesn’t work for you is just as important as knowing what does work, as it’s a way to distil the essence of you into something clearer and brighter. So, take a deep breath, dive into your beautiful maelstrom and let your true essence fly free…
Sometimes finding exactly the right words is incredibly hard; it can be so difficult to express the essence of a situation or experience into language as the words bring shape and form, and very often, there is no shape or form to the situations you find yourself in. There’s a blurred, wishy-washy line between clarity and uncertainty, but the nebulous nature of being you can mean clarity and certainty are just too concrete for you as they bind you to the moment rather than allowing you to be the fluid and free spirit you truly are. So, trying to describe the place in which you find yourself can be constricting rather than liberating as you become tied to the words rather than riding the ebb and flow. Yet, without description it can be hard to make sense of your life as there’s no reference point or anything to grab hold of.
However, the more definition you seek out, the more lost you become as you shift out of sorts and feel trapped in the structure of words and sentences. You know only too well that your life is free flowing, indefinable and unformulated as your essence doesn’t know boundaries; you do not confirm yourself to the four walls of everyday life as your consciousness seeks out the bigger picture and beyond. This may not make for an easy life but it makes for a richer one as you allow the essence of you to move beyond words and into a space of openness and curiosity to live your life according to how you feel rather than trying to make sense of everything all of the time. There is always a place for words, but when you step beyond these you liberate yourself from the shackles of trying to fit your unique shaped peg into this square shaped hole called life…
As your inner infrastructure continues to undergo a major shake-up and reshuffle, there is a growing sense of optimism rising up from deep within your being. It’s hard to explain where this optimism is coming from and even harder to know where it’s heading, as there is a nebulousness about it, but, even though it’s vague and ill-defined, you can’t help but feel excited by the prospect as it’s stirring up a new wave of inspiration in connection to living the life you were born to live. As your inner workings unwind and re-shape, you may feel a deep sense of discombobulation as many areas of your life no longer make much sense to you; it’s as though you’ve been living on auto-pilot for years and you’ve suddenly taken back the controls and have to familiarise yourself with how that feels. As a result, the life you’ve been living is likely to feel slightly out of kilter with the life you’ve thought you’ve been living.
So, as well as liberation you are also facing the reality of ‘flying solo’ and being at the helm of the great big ship of your life. In many ways, this excites you, but it terrifies you at the same time because it means having to make some of those big decisions you’ve been avoiding for so long. It’s not that you hate making decisions, it’s more a case that you’ve not been quite sure how best to proceed with your life, so you have been hovering in indecision, hoping for a lightbulb moment to appear in order to guide you forward. However, as you’re not quite sure what you’re looking for, you’re not quite sure what the lightbulb moment is meant to look like. As your inner reshuffle continues, trust your intuition to guide you and let it lead the way…
Sometimes life is filled with questions to be asked and sometimes life is filled with answers without questions. If you’re lucky, the answers come flooding in without too much of a delay, but there are times, when, no matter how hard you look, you simply cannot find an answer. In fact, the harder you look, the less clarity you find. Then there are the times when the harder you look you forget the question you asked in the first place and end up going on a kind of wild goose chase, chasing your tail without really knowing why. Of course, you can step back and see the funny side to this but not when you’re stuck in the middle of it! Despite your deeply philosophical nature, there is a sense of frustration emanating from you at the current time as you have been on a roll when it comes to answering some of those big life questions but, instead of bringing you clarity, you’ve ended up with more questions to ask.
Life is rarely as straightforward or as black and white as you would like, and, whilst you know this, you still find yourself feeling frustrated because you feel indignant that it can be such hard work. So, whilst you accept you can’t have all the answers, you feel frustrated all the same as you feel you ought to be able to have all the answers. It is a bit contrary and extremely confusing but this is a sign of you kicking out against the treadmill, rabbit run flow of life: you simply cannot just accept what you’re told as you need to find out for yourself. As a result, you are beginning to re-establish a stronger sense of self once again as you find your feet, explore your truth and open up to the concept of thriving in a world without answers…
As your creative sparkle continues to sizzle and buzz, there is a sense you are beginning to look at yourself and your life from a different perspective. Instead of seeing yourself in the everyday colours of your everyday world, you are beginning to notice new colours, textures and shapes appearing as you step beyond the ordinary into your more usual space of the extraordinary. Although you have found yourself in the black and white, monochrome world of the pedestrian, this has been necessary to allow you to keep on keeping on with your life. Yet, all the while, you have been longing to break free and explore the technicoloured vibrancy of your true essence. There is some irony in this as you have been seeing your life in a very black and white way: monochromes or technicolour. Why can’t you have both? Are they mutually exclusive or are they only that way because you believe them to be? The everyday pedestrian world of keeping on keeping on is a necessary part of life but does it really have to be devoid of the colour and vibrancy tucked away in your heart and soul?
Surely if you allow this sparkle to shine and flow freely, you can find ways to turn your everyday into something magical and special? This isn’t to say you will suddenly no longer have any ‘keeping on’ to do or live in a fairy-tale utopian world of specialness, but you will have the opportunity to live more consciously in the present moment knowing you have allowed your uniqueness and sparkle to light up your world from the inside, out. You may then begin to see that your everyday is only monochrome because that’s the filter you use. So, let the sparkle out and allow it to light up your life…
The theme of diving into the depths of your being continues throughout June as you begin to discover the joy of being a fluid and free. Living without definition or shape is a blessing but it’s not for everyone and even you struggle with it at times because you feel like you ought to be like everyone else, but you’re not. You are not a sheep, you do not live your life trying to fit into a box. You are beyond the concept of sheep and boxes as your fluidity allows your consciousness to take you beyond clear-cut definitions: you are a bit like Schrödinger’s Cat, both here and not here at the same time. In other words, you are present as much as you choose to be. You do not aspire to live your life by the societal archetypes and constructs most adhere to even though it makes for an easier life.
By beginning to accept your fluidity, you are letting go of the resistance and opening up to living way and beyond your wildest imagination which is both exhilarating and a little terrifying as you do find a sense of safety by hiding away in the everyday world as it means you don’t have to let go of the safe and familiar. Yet, you are not content in the everyday world, so you have a choice: own your true essence or put up with what you have. This may sound a little harsh, but there’s no point in wandering around the edges of the subject. You are an amazing, vibrant, creative and passionate soul; you are free-flowing, unique and beyond comprehension. You can celebrate this and embrace it or you can choose to be a sheep and baa like everyone else. In many ways, there is no do here, just a willingness to either be or not be…