Message for June 2018
Life is rarely as straightforward, or as black and white, as we might like it to be. Although most of us accept the unknowable nature of life, considerably less of us embrace this fact joyfully! Of course, it’s reality, so resisting it doesn’t change anything, but we are human and rarely take the logical approach! Indeed, even when we feel we have reached an enlightened state of awareness, those human quirks and nuances make sure we’re reminded of our human-ness on a regular basis. There is nothing wrong with this of course, but it can be frustrating to be constantly brought back down to earth with a bump when we’re gliding along with the currents of life.
Yet, life is unknowable and many of us take it for granted. I know I took my good health for granted until the day I couldn’t any more. I took walking in the woods and meandering along the beach for granted, after all, why wouldn’t I? It’s only now I realise what a privilege it is to be able to do such things. With the benefit of hindsight, I wish I savoured every single moment and connected so deeply with every footstep and every grain of sand. Of course, hindsight is only ever useful in hindsight as I can’t change what’s already happened, but it’s certainly woken me up and made me realise just how much I still can do. Admittedly, I am still reminded of the things I cannot do, but I can choose to let that realisation crush me or I can acknowledge it and find new ways to flourish and thrive. Life rarely turns out as we expect it, but we don’t have to sink when the rug gets pulled out from beneath our feet, we can learn to flex, adapt and adjust. Yes, this takes time and it takes courage, but life is too precious to squander focusing on ‘if only’s’ and ‘what if’s’. I learned that the hard way!
It’s also important to realise that the paths we walk are full of pot-holes, dead-ends and unchartered terrain and it’s these that enable us to grow and evolve. We can allow ourselves to grow angry and frustrated because of this, but what purpose does it serve other than to consume our souls with toxicity? As I recently wrote in a newsletter: ‘from challenge comes courage, and courage illuminates the soul with grace and beauty’. We are all human beings, but being human, being truly alive and living whole-heartedly takes great courage. It’s important to remember to try to make the most of life, to acknowledge our gifts, to grow through challenge and to allow the light within our hearts and souls to shine brightly. Although in many ways we walk alone, we are never truly alone as there are always others walking the path towards conscious and compassionate living. It seems vital now to focus on the things we have in common rather than the things that divide us and to offer genuine loving kindness to ourselves and others without condition or expectation. Perhaps the biggest gift we can give is in allowing our true natures the freedom to flourish and reach up towards the sunshine.
The more we can live in the moment, the more we can connect with the joy within our own hearts and souls. Joy isn’t a force to seek out as it’s within us already, we just have to acknowledge it. Whilst we don’t know what’s around the next corner, this doesn’t mean we should shrink and focus on the possible finiteness of our existence. The opposite should be true as we should use this knowledge to make the most of every single moment from walking in the woods to meandering along the beach. Once we have the courage to embrace the magic of life, life embraces us and opens up new doorways and opportunities.
For now, I wish you all kinds of wonderful.
As you continue to explore the depths of your heart and soul, this has enabled you to learn a great deal about yourself and why you are the way you are. Of course, being human means this new level of awareness hasn’t, as yet, enabled you to break some of the cycles you have inevitably found yourself in over the years, but it has allowed you to begin to examine why you do what you do in the way that you do it. You may be feeling slightly perplexed at this point, but that is the point as it seems that much of what you do in life, you do on autopilot, not really thinking about the why’s, what’s and if’s. It’s not clear when you started to tick along in such a way, but on many levels, it’s seemed easier to go with the flow rather than allow your colourful, creative and compassionate energy the freedom to dance and sparkle.
Whilst your true nature resists the idea of fitting in and being a part of the flock, over time it has become easier to try to fit in as life has simply been too busy with things to do, people to see and places to go. Yet, how much of this is distraction and how much involves you following your heart and soul? Yes, life isn’t always straightforward, letting you do exactly what you want to do when you want to do it, but you seem to have gone to the other end of the extreme and there is a sense of restlessness within you as a result. The time has come for you to acknowledge the truth of all that you are, to take ownership of it and to feel yourself re-aligning to your heart and soul as this is your time to dance…
June looks set to be a month of deepening self-compassion and self-awareness as you continue to connect to your intuitive and perceptive nature with more clarity than ever before. You have finally reached a space in your life where you seem more confident to express your true needs and to honour yourself more. You have become adept at being the person everyone else wants you to be, but you are not allowing yourself to be the person you know yourself to be; however, these new shifts are bringing much lightness and energy into your heart and soul, and, as a result, things are changing. It seems the more self-aware you become, the more you are realising just how important it is to not dismiss your own needs as indulgent. Far from it in fact, as the more aware you truly are, the more you help, not only yourself, but others as well. Of course, there is no hiding away from the fact that the more you step into your own light, the more aware you are of some resistance from those around you.
Whilst this is unlikely to be outright hostility, there is some definite fidgeting and wriggling with the discomfort of others realising that you are perhaps not the push over you’ve often allowed yourself to be. Perhaps ‘push over’ is too strong a phrase, but you get the gist! Your strength, courage and bull-like tendencies have never gone away, it’s just that your stubbornness wouldn’t give them a look-in as it somehow felt easier to put your own needs last, but now you’ve opened up your eyes, heart and soul, you are realising that there is still so much you want to do with your life. You have some big dreams and some major goals that have been bubbling back up to the surface recently, so rather than squash them back down again, take a deep breath and see where it takes you…
The concept of resting consciously in the present moment looks set to take centre stage throughout June as you continue to explore the here and now with more vim, gusto and determination than ever before. Your willingness to shift your focus more towards the present moment rather than letting it drift through time and space, asking profound questions and pondering the existential nature of why things are the way they are, has enabled you to lift the load somewhat and to start trusting in yourself more to get on and live your life rather than waiting for all of your questions to be answered first. You will always have questions, and there will always be new ones surfacing at any given moment in time. Even when you receive answers, new answers will arise as well as new questions. This is a part of the cycle of your life and instead of allowing it to keep your life on hold you are now realising the importance of getting on and living anyway.
You have dived head-first into the present moment and there is a sense that you have allowed yourself to travel right into the core of your being in order to clear blocks and to access the truth of your essence. As a result, you are beginning to feel both lighter and heavier at the same time. You may therefore conclude from this that being both lighter and heavier leaves you in exactly the same space, but it doesn’t. Let your intuition feel this and you will gain a clearer sense of understanding. Perhaps this is a paradox, but that’s the point! By being in this moment, you are lighter and free from the weight of linear time, but you are more rooted and awake, and therefore heavier in the here and now. This has given you a true sense of freedom to explore new dimensions of possibility than you ever dreamed possible…
As you continue to explore some important questions in your life, there is a sense that you are beginning to gain a deeper understanding as to the true flavour of the answers. What enriches you? What deplete you? What warms your soul? What doesn’t? Whilst you have always had an inkling as to the answers, it’s only now that you’ve started taking some time out to really contemplate the questions, that you are realising the incongruence between the life you are living and the life you thought you’d be living. Of course, life has a habit of taking us down side roads, alleys and into unchartered terrain whatever our best intentions, so not living the life you thought you’d be living is not that unsurprising. However, what you need to ask yourself now is does the life you find yourself living make your heart sing and your soul glow?
You may resist asking this question of yourself as intuitively you already know the answer. Yet, does not asking the question, mean the whole thing just goes away? As much as you’d like that to be the case, you know it doesn’t as that inner nagging doesn’t stop however hard you’ve tried to distract yourself with the busy-ness of everyday life. At the end of the day, you are the only one who can decide what happens next as you are in the driving seat of your own consciousness! Resisting the answer may mean you don’t have to openly acknowledge the question, but is that a solution or are you kidding yourself by keeping your head buried in the sand? At the same time, by not acknowledging the answer, you are not allowing your phenomenal brain to come up with ways to allow you to live the life you were born to live without creating the chaos and turmoil you seem to fear will happen. There is a solution, you just have to take a deep breath first…
It seems commonplace now for hit TV shows to be made with numerous different finales in order to keep fans and cast guessing until the very last moment as to what happens. That way, until the day of the show, no one really knows who did what, when and how. Of course, life is like that most of the time anyway, but what if it wasn’t? What if you could outline numerous different outcomes to each of the many different situations you find yourself in at any one moment in time? Would it help to know in advance what may, or may not, happen? This may seem like odd question, but there is a sense that you have treading water for a while now, waiting for some clarity as to what is going to happen next before you make any big decisions. Whilst this is understandable, it’s left you in a kind of perpetual frozen stasis of being unable to move backwards or forwards until you know more even though intuitively you cannot know more as life just doesn’t carry a time machine of possibilities.
Yet, maybe you have been looking at this the wrong way? Maybe your quest to know the outcome before you’ve embarked on the journey is more of a sign that the journey just isn’t the right one for you? You’re not hovering because you need a definite answer, you just want to feel that warm, fuzzy feeling inside that tells you everything is as it should be? After all, you have never been afraid to explore pastures new nor have you lacked the courage to face challenges and dead ends, as each one has brought you wisdom and learning. Maybe you think you’re being indecisive when, in fact, you’re just listening to your phenomenal intuition! So, stop giving yourself such a hard time and instead begin to trust your intuition to lead the way…
As you continue to ponder the concept of your life as a jigsaw puzzle, you are beginning to see just how many of those seemingly awkward pieces actually fit in perfect harmony once you step back to see the bigger picture of your life. You have spent a long time focused on the details, trying so hard to make everything fit together, and, in the process, it seems you have lost sight of why you’re doing it. It’s so easy to get lost in the details of life, after all, there is so much colour, energy, sound and stimuli coming in from all directions at once. It’s only natural to want to translate all of this into something meaningful to you but that’s not always possible as life doesn’t always translate into something literal. This doesn’t stop you trying, of course, but there are times when you need to consider why you are pushing so hard instead of using your creative, explorative brain to seek out other possibilities and solutions.
You are one of the most innovative and inspired people you know, and no, that’s not big-headedness, just fact. So, instead of spending so much time and effort on trying to get everything to fit together, maybe it’s time to let go for a while and see where it takes you? After all, if you did manage to complete the jigsaw puzzle would this bring you solutions or more questions? Would you look at the puzzle and begin to see edges that aren’t quite perfectly aligned or pieces that maybe don’t fit that well after all? The perfectionist in you is constantly seeking more, and this is the force that has motivated you to live the best life possible and to reach towards the stars. This isn’t a time to get lost in the details but a time to shine brightly in order to be the best version of you that you can be…
As the primal and earthy emotions continue to rumble and grumble around your inner world, there is a sense you are beginning to make peace with their presence in your life. For a long time now, you have denied these deep, almost primitive, feelings as they have felt out of sync with your everyday life. As a result, you have smiled over the storms within and done your best to keep on keeping on. Yet, why? What is it about your emotional world that you struggle with? In truth, you are more of a thinker than a feeler, but your emotions are a rich, vibrant tapestry, full of life and creativity. In many ways, it is your emotional world that feeds your creativity and spirituality as you have experienced so much. Yet, if those emotions remain neatly boxed up, marked ‘not going there’, it will be hard for you to find a sense of peace as there is an incongruence right at the core of your heart and soul.
You resist the rumblings and grumblings because you don’t want to upset the apple cart of your life and yet you intuitively know that the apple cart can never be truly in balance unless you open up your heart and soul. Whilst this is yet another paradox for you to accommodate in your life, you already know the solution. The only reason you are aware of the rumbles and grumbles within is because your emotions are seeking release and freedom. This doesn’t have to mean crumbling in a heap when they surface but gracefully allowing yourself to acknowledge your inner world more wholeheartedly and with compassion. Don’t judge yourself, love yourself and remember to be tender with yourself. You are a sensitive soul and your rich experiences carry so much wisdom; this is your moment to set yourself free and to use this emotional journey as a way to inspire others…
Life is full of moments. Moments to do, moments to be, moments to pause, moments to ponder and moments to breathe. Life is a continuous flow of moments but it’s easy not to notice them as life is usually so full of things to do, people to see and places to go. Of course, with your life being so busy, it’s understandable that you don’t have the time or space to step back to see the bigger picture in order to be more aware of these moments, but it doesn’t mean they don’t exist. You are an intuitive soul and you are acutely aware of the seemingly random and incongruent happenings that come together to form the wider landscape of life and yet, at the same time, when you focus, you can also see all of the tiny details; the individually carved and coloured tiles that form the mosaic. In fact, you can go even deeper than this as you can see how each one fits together, forming the whole.
You may wonder why it’s important to notice such things but it’s your ability to be so deeply aware that allows you to live your life more consciously than most. You live amongst the ebb and flow of the currents of life, rolling in with the in-breath, and rolling out with the out-breath. The tides of your soul are finely tuned to the bigger picture and the finer details, so your awareness of moments liberates you from the daily pedestrian routine of keeping on keeping on. In your heart and soul lives a kaleidoscope of magic; not hocus-pocus, but the magic of life and the miracle of being a vibrant part of the ever-moving and ever-flowing whole that makes up the universe. It’s easy to forget this when popping out for milk or paying the bills, but take a deep breath and you will be reconnected to the magic within…
As you continue to ride the ebb and flow of life, there is a growing sense that you are beginning to find a sense of peace with the eternal shifts of the currents and the ever-changing nature of your existence. There are times when life feels tumultuous and challenging, but there are also times when life feels delicious and amazing. There are also times when life brings you a sense of all of the above! Even when times are challenging, there is one thing within you that remains constant, bright and well-illuminated: your inspiration. Your inspiration is your inner beacon, your light that brings you hope and instils a sense of deep creativity and profound intuition within you. Over the years, you have learned how to connect to your inspiration in ways that feel symbiotic as you have discovered how to feed your talents and gifts.
At the same time, your inner light has illuminated the path ahead during dark times, helping you to see beyond fear and pain, and finding hope and determination in the process. In short, your inspiration is your one true constant in life as it’s your life-force, feeding your soul and warming your heart. Yet, despite knowing how important your inspiration is to you, there have been many times in your life where you’ve put it to one side in order to do the ‘right’ thing and follow a path you feel you ought to follow even though intuitively you have not felt it light you up from within. Ought’s can form a powerful role in life, particularly when you are trying to be everything to everyone, but they can also become toxic over time as they freeze those flowing currents and lock in your inspiration. The time has come for you to open up more to that glowing light within and allow it to show you a new way of living and being…
You have reached a point in your life where you feel in-betwixt a moment; you are not quite where you want to be, but you have not remained stuck in the same old place either. You have moved forwards, but inevitably, you have also moved backwards (and side to side) as well. There are times when you’re not quite sure if you’re coming, going, or lost somewhere in between, but, overall, you can see that the meanderings of your life have actually brought you great wisdom and knowledge. Of course, there have been some incredibly challenging times and some downright arduous times, but there have also been many good times as well as it’s important to remember these as they often get lost amongst the challenges. In many ways, it is your journey off the beaten track – the journey that’s neither mapped nor pre-defined – that has allowed you to discover more about yourself than you ever imagined possible.
Whilst you have deviated away from the master plan of your life, you haven’t shrunk as a result, you have grown. You now find yourself in new territory and instead of feeling frustrated that you are not where you feel you ought to be, you have shifted into a space of acceptance and relief as you can feel the tinglings of excitement and anticipation rising up from deep within the core of your being. It’s hard to articulate, but a pressure has been lifted off your shoulders as you no longer need to sit atop that pedestal you created for yourself long ago and you now have the freedom to be yourself. So, there is much to be said for being in-betwixt a moment as it has enabled you to realise that you now have the freedom to move backwards, forwards, up, down or side-to-side as you are exactly where you need to be…
As you continue to journey through a period of shift and change in your life, there is a myriad of different thoughts and emotions swirling around your consciousness. Whilst this chapter of change feels whole-hearted and long-anticipated, there is a sense you are still not quite sure exactly what’s involved! On one hand you are trusting the process and trying to go with the flow, but your mind is trying to make sense of it all and struggling as you seem to be in the middle of a whirlwind of multi-levelled, multi-faceted change which feels both exciting and a tad confusing at the same time. With your head and your heart pulling in slightly different directions it seems important for you to take some time to breathe deeply into the moment in order to remain centred and grounded as much as possible. Of course, with you being you, you could never be glued to the floor as you are too fluid for that, but a least a modicum of grounded-ness will help you to make sense of where you are and where you’re heading.
Although your head and your heart are two formidable forces in your life, don’t forget that they are both a part of the bigger picture of you. As a result, they do not have to pull in different directions all of the time as you are at the helm of the ship of your life, so you can find ways to unify and coalesce these wonderful forces into something that feels more cohesive and user-friendly. This is your moment to re-shape and re-define the essence of your life as you find new ways to thrive and flourish. Seeking wisdom and understanding are a part of your nature but try not to get lost in riddles and unanswerable questions; sometimes you need to let go in order to fly…
Anais Nin once wrote: ‘Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one’s courage’. These words reach deeply into your heart and soul as there is a sense you have touched a crescendo of awareness where you can no longer ignore the reality of the words. You have courage by the bucket load, but it’s often been easier to shrink as it’s made for a simpler, less knotty life. Whilst you are not afraid of challenges, there is a part of you that seems to doubt your ability to rise up and let your courage shine. There could be many reasons for this including having your fingers burned in the past and feeling weary of always being the one who charges ahead taking care of business. Of course, it’s often the case that you choose to be in prime position as you care so deeply about those around you and you also prefer to place their needs above your own as it means you don’t have to spend too much time thinking about the life you’re living versus the life you’d perhaps wish you were living.
It’s not that you don’t think about your dreams because you do, but you prefer not to dwell on them as you seem to feel that they are out of reach rather than something that sets your soul on fire. So, choosing to expand, although the obvious choice, actually takes great courage as it means stepping into unknown terrain, taking a risk and allowing your true essence the room to flow freely. You certainly seem to have the desire to expand as you cannot shift the deep longing within your heart and soul, but there is something comfortable and familiar about the default position of ‘shrinking’. Of course, it takes courage to consciously choose such a path, but you seem ready now to take a breath and expand like a butterfly spreading its wings…