Message for May 2019
Change is a constant in life. Sometimes we embrace it wholeheartedly and other times we resist it with every atom in our being. Occasionally we fight it, only to realise how positive it has been, and there are times when the opposite happens. We don’t live with the benefit of hindsight, so our response to change can only either be in the moment or retrospective when we look back. We may try to predict change on the path ahead, but none of us can know what lies around the next corner.
Yet, welcome it or resist it, it happens all the same. Although it’s inevitable, we often hope we can find a way to master change in order to shape and define the pathways we walk. Even though we intuitively know we can’t wield such control, it doesn’t stop us trying all the same – we are complex conundrums at times! It’s inherently human to want to master the ebb and flow of the tides, and we’re unlikely to ever stop trying, yet, there is a sense that we also need to learn the art of graceful acceptance in order to find a deeper level of peace within our hearts and souls.
There are times in our lives when we feel as though we are stuck in a cycle, going round and round, repeating the same mistakes, owning the same beliefs and not sensing any significant change when the cycle starts over again. Obviously this frustrates us, and it can leave us feeling as though we are in a kind of evolutionary stasis where we can struggle to see a way forwards. Yet, the fact we are even looking for a way forward is a sign we have made progress as we are no longer blindly walking around in circles. However, we want more than awareness, we want to see, and feel, change; we want to know that we are on the path from where we are to where we want to be.
Our eagerness to evolve and change can sometimes accelerate our evolution in ways beyond our imagination as pushing too hard, too soon, can crack the cocoon before it’s ready to hatch. A butterfly will only emerge when the times right, after all. The cocoon seems an apt description, as we are all reaching a new stage of evolution, one where we begin to unify more succinctly on all levels. It seems important for us to acknowledge the roles we play in our own destiny, to own our choices and to look within for answers (as we so often look externally). The more centred we become, the more likely we will step more consciously into each and every moment.
We are in the midst of a profound period of change, and many souls are spiralling wildly feeling lost, alone, confused and bewildered. Some of us are riding the whirlwinds with slightly less spin, allowing us to condense and distil the experiences into wisdom and knowledge. It therefore seems important for each of us (when possible) to reach out to others, to offer support, love and compassion, and to realise that whilst each of us will be experiencing these shifts differently, we are all part of the universal whole. It is our willingness to reach out, and to love, that ultimately shapes and defines us, as it’s a sign that we have finally broken out of the cocoon and stepped into a space of love and balance. Of course, we will all continue to be spun around by the whirlwinds of life as that’s a part of being alive, but we will be wiser, stronger and ever more compassionate. What defines us isn’t where we’ve been or what we aspire to be, but how we shine in this moment…
For now, I wish you all kinds of wonderful.
There seems to be something of an inner rebellion going on with you at the current time; a sense of one part of you pulling against the other. These two ‘sides’ seem to be non-linear, moveable parts, which never stay the same for long, making it hard to articulate and define the essence of this rebellion, but essentially it seems you are exploring ways to incorporate your free-spirited essence with your slightly more logical and structured side. This is no mean feat! Your free-spirit has always needed some breathing space, so being tied to the same old routine feels like being tethered in a prison cell. At times, this has been deeply challenging for you as you have also worked hard to create an ordered and structured life, one where you have clearly defined goals, and one where you are able to succinctly and concisely measure the level of your successes (and failures), as nebulousness really irks you.
So, how can you bring together these two forces when, on the surface, they seem so very different? Well, in many ways you already have brought them together as you’ve been living with them both for quite some time! Yet, there’s a sense of some friction between these two forces, a bit like a dog living with a cat, they don’t like each other, but they tolerate it. You want more than toleration; you need integration and harmony. It therefore seems important to find a way to achieve a deeper sense of peace between the two sides of your soul, as they are part of the same coin. There is no instruction manual that goes with this process, just a willingness on your part to love all aspects of yourself and to realise that they are not opposing forces, they actually work together perfectly. Just set them free…
As you continue to give your dreams and goals some much needed breathing space by allowing them to naturally grow and flourish as an integral part of your life, there is a sense you are beginning to see your life less from a perspective of dealing with never-ending challenges, but more from a perspective of compassion and tranquillity. Whilst this may not sound very vibrant or dynamic, there is a sense that you are weary of the dialogue you’ve created that sees you as one of life’s fighters, pushing on, battling away, climbing up those mountains, and always being prepared for the challenges ahead. This dialogue has hard edges and it leaves you feeling embattled, giving you little room to breathe, create and thrive. Of course, life can be a battle ground, but when your perspective feeds into this, it can be difficult to see beyond this in order to cultivate an aura of calm, creativity and compassion.
May looks set to be a month for you to step back a little in order to re-shape and re-define the ways in which you see both yourself and your life. You are a vibrant and intuitive soul, and the time has come for you to embrace this wholeheartedly now in order to shift your life from where you are to where you want to be. Whilst you may not exactly know where you want to be, you have a good idea of what needs to change in your life, and this is a good place to start. You have spent so long trying to be everything to everyone and trying to battle through each day, and it’s time now to realise that it’s fine to put down the armour and find a new way of living your life as you are ready for a more peaceful and joyful path ahead…
Life is full of moments, and moments of moments. Most of these moments are pedestrian, run of the mill moments that you don’t even notice, and there are some that stand out for a host of different reasons. Yet, all moments are equal in terms of the journey of your life, as they have all come together to make you the person you are today. This isn’t to say that some moments haven’t shaped and defined you, carving out features on the many different levels of your soul, but the other, pedestrian moments, are no less important as they are the glue that holds everything else together. It’s easy to become defined by those individual moments of pain, glory, power, grief and otherwise that take centre stage in your heart and soul, but these are not the full story of you. It’s wise to remember this now as you are embarking on a journey towards self- discovery throughout May; you are beginning to realise that the bigger picture of your life is where your focus needs to be rather than on the minutiae and intricacies of individual moments.
This isn’t to say that you should ignore the past, but it’s important not to let it define the present as you are far more than the sum of your past experiences. Of course, it’s often difficult to remember this when you are spinning around in a whirlwind of moments, many of which are clashing and colliding together, but when you take a deep breath, the whirlwind settles and you once again regain a sense of perspective. Part of the path of living consciously is to ride with the whirlwind and to realise that it’s not a force to fight, but a force to love. Love yourself and love your many parts; you are imperfectly perfect exactly as you are…
You have spent a great deal of your time focusing hard on keeping on keeping on, trying to keep the wheels on the great big bus of your life rolling even though you can see nuts, bolts and the odd wheel rolling down the hill around you. It may feel as though everything is falling apart and the carefully constructed life you’ve created is changing shape and form. Whilst your life is changing shape and form, it’s important to realise that it always does this as that’s a part of being alive. It seems clear you are currently going through a major transformation and you are facing the depths of your soul in ways you never thought possible. Big decisions may need to be made but, more importantly, take some time out for yourself as you are not the only one riding the big bus, so let others step up and take some of the strain. Nuts and bolts fall away all the time, and you are a master mechanic, keeping things tip top, but the cost of this is a lessening of your sense of self-worth, a feeling that you give so much to the rolling wheels, that you’ve lost yourself in the process.
May looks set to be a month where you ask yourself what you truly want in your life. Are you happy? Are you listening to your own needs? This isn’t about ignoring the needs of others, but it is about listening to what you truly and wholeheartedly want. This is your time; an opportunity to redefine the essence of you. This is exciting, and if bits of the bus continue to fall away, then maybe that’s because it’s time to find a new form of transportation? Use your imagination and your phenomenal intuition, and let them lead the way…
As you continue to find ways of expressing your inner roar and passion, there is a sense that you are beginning to seek out ways of expanding the ‘you time’ in your life. You spend so much of your time trying to be everything to everyone else, with things to do, people to see and places to go, that you can end up never having the time to do things for yourself. It’s not that you outwardly neglect yourself, but there is a sense that you often gloss over that inner roar when you’re distracted with so many things to do, be and see. Your roar needs the space to flourish and thrive as it’s your life force and your true essence; if it becomes trapped or stifled, your colour fades, and you lose some of your effervescence and passion. Your roar is a central part of your soul, it’s that thread that weaves everything else together to make you, you.
Your roar is your way of expressing your colour, vitality and vibrancy, so it’s really important that you find ways of letting it flow freely. In the past, you may have felt your roar was inappropriate in life as it could be loud and big, and this may have led to challenges and difficulties, but your roar isn’t brash or pig-headed, it’s simply a powerful reflection of your true nature and it’s something to love and be proud of. Although Leo has a reputation for being loud and colourful, your colours are vibrant, but subtle. In fact, much of the loudness comes from trying to be everything to everyone else. Just realise that there is still plenty of room for you to pick up your brush and make your mark; this is your time to create a brand-new way of living and being..
As you embrace the winds of change which continue to gather momentum within your heart and soul, there is a sense you are beginning to feel a sense of connection with the swirling winds as they begin to carve out a new pathway in your life. As yet, you are not quite sure where this pathway is heading, but you seem content with this uncertainty as your focus is in the here and now, watching the winds swirling around and gazing in awe as they carve out new shapes and forms. You have always been observant, and your abilities to see the finer details in life have allowed you to explore so much. At the same time though, you have also found yourself lost in the details, unable to see the bigger picture, and it can be hard knowing you’re in a forest when all you can see is the tiny piece of bark you have under your microscope. Whilst you will always be a details person, don’t forget that you are also a bigger picture person as well.
Fine details need context in order for you to make sense of them. So, step back to see the tree, the forest, the continent, the planet, the solar system, the universe. Use your intuitive prowess to discover new terrain within your heart and soul in order to ride those winds of change with courage and confidence. Whilst you have no idea where these winds will take you, enjoy the ride and try to stop clinging on so tightly as you move from fear to peace. May looks set to be a month for re-discovering your true nature and realising that there is plenty of room for fun and breathing space amongst the finer details. Just remember, this is your life, so live it well…
‘The day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom’. Risk by Anaïs Nin has come to represent something quite powerful for Libra recently, a sense of being on the verge of bursting forth renewed and reinvigorated, but feeling held back by the safety of the knowable darkness of the bud. You have reached a kind of critical mass; a time where staying as you are feels untenable even though you know that stepping into new terrain feels unknowable, unpredictable and incomprehensible. Yet, despite this, you intuitively know that you have to move forward as it’s time to burst free and bloom.
You have spent a great deal of your life hovering on the periphery of here and there. In many ways, this is something we all do as we are always in between here and there as that’s called life, yet, you feel this very deeply and you have struggled to feel at peace with hovering as you intuitively know that whilst you are slowly moving towards the horizon marked ‘there’, you are holding back slightly, feeling the safety of being in bud, of being wrapped up and cocooned. There are a myriad of reasons as to why being a bud has captivated you for so long, but you are ready now to set yourself free in order to stride towards pastures new. Living on the periphery has been tiring as you have been stuck between here and there, not quite committing to either, and the time has come for you to grab hold of your life with both hands and to face the risk of blossoming head on; it’s time to be a flower. No one knows what lies around the next corner, but you won’t find out unless you look…
As you continue to let go of the distractions and clutter in your life, there is a sense you are beginning to breathe more deeply into the nooks and crannies left behind. For the first time in quite a while it seems as though you are able to fully inhale and exhale, and enjoy the moments in between where you are doing neither one nor the other. Space is a wonderful concept, but try not to be too keen to fill it back up again as space doesn’t mean empty. Space can fulfil an important role in its’ own right as it allows you to spend a little bit more time in that gap where you are doing nothing other than being in the moment. It’s easy to see why you would want to fill the space as you’re used to being busy in life with a plethora of things to do, people to see and places to go, and there’s a sense of trepidation with the concept of space that it may mean you end up looking at the bottom of your soul, that place you so rarely get to see.
This trepidation is only natural as it’s unfamiliar territory, but it’s not necessarily a place you should fear to tread, it’s a part of you after all. The trepidation comes from a sense that you don’t know the true sense of what lies within you, and as a mysteriously deep individual, you assume your depths will be arduous and sticky. However, creating space doesn’t mean you need to wallow in your depths, it just allows them some room to breathe. This is a time in your life to find ways of loving yourself; leaning into the space will help you realise that your inner world is one of peace…
‘Life is like a box of chocolates…’ is a phrase you’re all too familiar with. You take delight in not being too sure ‘what you’re going to get’ as you’re a spontaneous, free-spirited soul. Yet, there is a sense that whilst you accept your free-spirited nature, you don’t quite embrace it wholeheartedly. Life is like a box of chocolates, but you know the chocolates you love and the ones that quite frankly shouldn’t make it into the box. You also love the chocolatier and their unique flavour combinations, something you’d never find in a box. At the same time, a slab of Dairy Milk also goes down quite well. In other words, a box of chocolates doesn’t really cut the mustard for you as you need the freedom to live beyond the box and to eat whatever chocolate you fancy. Of course, moving beyond the chocolate analogy, it seems clear that you need freedom in your life to go ‘off box’ to follow your heart and soul.
You don’t really like diving into a box of chocolates not knowing what you’re going to get as you need some reassurance that it will be something you’ll like! So, a free-spirit, but one with a clearly driven sense of what’s acceptable and what’s not as you like far more clarity than you’d often think. Yes, you’re okay with spontaneity and the unknown, but as long as it’s an unknown you’ll like! There’s nothing wrong with this, but it’s important to acknowledge your true needs and wants as you’ve reached a time in your life to focus on eating the chocolates you love rather than tentatively biting into loads concerned that you’ll get something hideous. In other words, live life by what you want, not by what you don’t…
May looks set to be a month of transformation and revelation as you continue to shake yourself free from aspects of your life that have been weighing you down. In your quest to live more wholeheartedly, there is a sense that you are beginning to realise just how much you compromise your own sense of self when it comes to others. As a result, you have started to wriggle free from areas of your life that have, over time, started to deplete you rather than nourish you. Some of this has come as a surprise to you as the dynamics have changed slowly over time and you haven’t noticed the shift. However, now you’re becoming more aware, you are keen to create some much-needed breathing space in order to fully contemplate your path ahead. It’s important to enjoy this breathing space, rather than rushing ahead towards new projects and goals as you really do need some rest and time to replenish your sense of self.
You have been the person you thought you ought to be for so long that the person you really are has got lost underneath and it will take a little time to acclimatise to the real you re-surfacing. At the same time, although you are letting go of a great deal, you are also realising just how deeply some of these ‘oughts’ have grown into the fabric of your being. Yet, just because it looks complex to untangle doesn’t mean you can’t untangle it. Step back a little to regain some perspective and you’ll see a way. Self-belief is one of your strengths, and whilst it may get lost in the mêlée at times, take a moment to re-centre and realise that this transformation looks set to catapult you towards your dreams…
Your energy levels have felt out of kilter lately, as though you’re oscillating between energy states. As yet, you haven’t been able to pinpoint the exact cause of this. It’s a bit like being in the stagnant, airless space moments before a thunderstorm in hot, humid weather. As the storm grows closer, the air gets thicker and thicker until the storm crashes in, breaks the heat and balance is restored once again. In those moments after the storm, the air feels clear and fresh, birds start singing and the world feels amazing. You’re oscillating between the moments before the storm and after. Whilst it’s hard going at times, there is plenty for you to work with. Of course, it can be hard to feel enthusiastic about circling storms as this suggests tumultuous times ahead. Well, possibly, but not necessarily. Storms are not just about devastation and challenge they are also times for renewal and letting go.
You have been on a journey of release over recent months and this has taken you into some deep, dark territory within your heart and soul. You have faced your depths and walked through the storms in order to find a deeper sense of peace. Storms rage within you all the time, as your mind and soul whiz around at a million miles an hour. It’s hard for anyone other than you to keep up with you as you are on fast forward, and simply don’t live at the same pace as others. As a result, you are on the leading edge of life, and experience things that few could even comprehend. This means you feel the shifts more deeply than others, but it also allows you to walk through life lightly, shedding distractions and clutter as you go. This is a time to release and be free…
You’re amazing. Believe it. Those words ended your last forecast and they seem just as relevant in May as they were in April, if not more so. You are very good at giving yourself a hard time for not being enough, doing enough, achieving enough or saying enough. You always feel you ‘could do better’ and rarely feel happy or contented with your efforts and achievements. You have grown so used to feeling somehow ‘less than’ that it has become a part of your everyday belief system. This needs to change. Right now! You are kind, loving, giving, generous and you really are amazing; it’s time to start believing in this now. Yes, there is always an opportunity to do things better or differently, but to constantly berate yourself for not doing more only leads to a life of lack as nothing is ever good enough. Now this isn’t to say you should stop striding towards your dreams or learning from any ‘mistakes’, this is more of a forceful nudge in the ribs to remind you to love yourself more. It’s time to start offering some of that gentleness, loving and generosity to yourself.
May looks set to be a month of a deepening of the connection within your heart and soul, a willingness to become one with the ebb and flow of life. This makes it even more important for you to open up to loving yourself wholeheartedly (warts and all), as without self-love and self- compassion, how can you truly find peace? You are intuitive and wise, so listen to your heart and soul, and let this inner wisdom guide you forwards. Start letting go of the resistance within and start believing just how amazing you are. This isn’t about ego, it’s about self-love. So, take a deep breath, honour yourself, let go and let love…